Forgiveness of Father and Joy Experience
“I remember my Dad spanking me in front of the neighbor when I was about four. He never really told me why he spanked me even though I knew I had been playing with matches. I was so hurt that I went upstairs and threw myself on the bed and told God I did not want to live anymore.
When I was six, I had to have an appendectomy for acute appendicitis. Years later, my ileocecal valve began to give me discomfort so I would talk to my body and ask it what I did to create this discomfort. My sense was that I created the appendicitis by holding the stress of that experience since I was four. My father was killed when I was 15 — I could not cry but about three tears and that was a week or so after the funeral.
Even though I used forgiveness affirmations to forgive my Dad and this situation for 38 years, that love feeling was not there. Finally, after doing the Healing Codes for four weeks, I was able to allow myself to go back into that experience enough to release the trauma, and, for the first time in my life, I felt a sense of love and respect for my Dad. Finally, I would admit to myself that my best interest was the basis for his action.
The Healing Codes seemed to dislodge the stress that I had been holding all these years so that transformation could occur. “When I was on just my fourth day of the 12 days, I was allowing my truth statements about Love to flow and one of my statements was “On Valentines Day, I choose to receive a dozen purple roses but red will do. However, I’d be very happy with just one red rose and some Valentines.
The next day, after some processing and the prayer, I was again letting my truth statements about Joy flow while doing the exercises. They went something like this: “I feel the joy of the doves that they found food to eat on my balcony right now. I choose to feel joy when I’m driving to the dentist today. I allow myself to feel joy when I’m at the dentist. I choose that the dentist be gentle and respect me, etc.”* (I’ve had at least three traumatic dental experiences.)
When I got to the dentist’s, I have never had such a pleasant experience in a dental office in my life. Yes, I actually felt JOY when he so gently took his time with the injection. Tears were rolling down my face with JOY—there was NO pain whatsoever. When he finished, he told me about the five crowns he would need to replace and the cost of five gold crowns. It didn’t phase me. I even went so far as to tell him that I wanted to do something that he probably never had happen before in his life and I said, “I want to tip you, not much, but I just want to take this opportunity to share and let myself really feel the joy inside.”
As I was scheduling my next appointment, I noticed that it was on Valentines Day and mentioned that to his assistant. She said, “Oh yes, that’s a good day to come in because the Dr. has asked me to pick up enough red roses on Sunday so everyone can have one on Monday.
“I wish to express my appreciation to Mrs. Loyd for going into the pits of Hell so that these Codes could eventually be received from the Universe via Dr. Loyd. The Healing Codes allows those of us who choose it to move stagnant energy out of our bodies and ultimately experience Transformation. ‘Ye are Gods; and all of you are children of the Most High.’ (Psalms 82:6)”
~~ Anna Marie