Suicidal

The last six years of my life have been a nightmare from hell and I did not want to stay alive. I could not see a point. I did not have a purpose. I lost my purpose six years ago. I still struggle every day to find a reason to be here. To stay here. The only reason I have is that I do have a daughter that is only a teenager, and I want to stay alive for her. But I didn’t know how. I don’t currently have enough money for traditional therapy, and besides that I think traditional therapy is counterproductive, at least for me.

Then I found The Healing Codes, but I did not know what they were. On a whim, I looked for a coach, and he actually answered the phone himself. He was calm and supportive and took the time to talk to me. Which was good, because I was really at the end of a road. After we talked, it only took him 15 minutes to hook me up with the materials I needed to heal a wound so deep I did not think I would live.

When my package arrived, I embraced the whole experience. I picked it up from in front of the garage and carried it up the stairs and climbed into my bed and unpacked the most incredible information I have ever experienced. I did not know it would be like that. I had absolutely no idea what I was receiving. It was beautiful. It was so in line with how I think God intended for us to heal. And so simple, yet so deep at the same time. 



I have a knowing that all illness, all wounds, emotional or otherwise, come from the heart. All of them. And mine was a broken heart so deeply wounded. I could never have imagined in a million years that I could have experienced such emotional devastation. I thank God everyday that my parents are not alive to see this. What happened to me would have killed them. It damned near killed me, but I am finding restoration in the codes. I find that I have to do them at least once a day now, sometimes twice, but I know without a doubt I would be dead had I not found The Codes, and a coach.

I carry my pocket guide in my handbag AT ALL TIMES. I listen to the CD’s every day. And still every now and again I will refer to the Manual and the Journal. It’s only been less than four months since I received The Healing Codes, but I know that on some level I am healed. The more I do them, the more I heal.
 I thank God everyday, every blessed day, that I have something that I can hang on to, that I have some way out of a living hell. I can actually feel hope returning to my life, and I have a road map to follow that feels right and in alignment with God.




~~ L. Williams